an ending and a beginning

msn conversation with Amy:

Gabrielle says:
i have to do something to say goodbye to this pregnancy. i know it's what's holding me back from going into labour cos i am teary even thinking of it ending.
i feel so beautiful this pregnant, so full and in blossom and i don't wanna be tired, fatigued and flabby with a newborn yet!

amy says:
r u sad because u think its the last?

Gabrielle says:
maybe. i think a bit of me feels it is

Gabrielle says:
and u know how much i love this stuff, it's hard to let go of

Gabrielle says:
i was devastated when jase and i separated last time cos i mourned the babes i wouldn't have and then when this one came along it was so so much of a beautiful gift
i'm bawling my eyes out right now

Gabrielle says:
not terribly sad but just know this is it

Gabrielle says:
i'll miss the beauty and strength of feeling completely in an act of creation

Gabrielle says:
i should blog about it i think.. a commemorative and cathartic thing

amy says:
it must be ..i truly feel an emptiness just watching you so beautiful and blossumed..and that wanting to be full..its love from the inside...and radiates from you..that baby is hanging to get so you can be her/his mummy..cos you are the bestest

amy says:
i wish i could hug you right now

amy says:
thats a good idea

Gabrielle says:
thank u

amy says:
blog away

Gabrielle says:
i never felt so womanly and glowing in my femininity with the other two.. it has been THIS pregnancy that has brought it out in me and i know there will be other ways i'll express that part of me in life but pregnancy and birth is HUGE to that essential life giving essence of a woman

Gabrielle says:
i should just blog this convo

Gabrielle says:
it's what makes women clucky hey

amy says:
so well said

Gabrielle says:
seeing the beauty in other pregnant women and recogising how DIVINE it is

amy says:
you have been blessed to know that you can take this new essence of woman with you..into motherhood and into yourself

amy says:
so tru

Gabrielle says:
yes ur right

Gabrielle says:
i just have to let go of this being about me

Gabrielle says:
it's the first time i've truly felt my power; creatively, nurturing-wise and lovingly in a sense of how expansive it can be

amy says:
no way u just have to share it with all of us a bit more than u r used to..your power is beautiful feminine energy that so many of us will learn from and love

Gabrielle says:
oh thank u babe

Gabrielle says:
ok snot fest going on here now

amy says:
lol

Gabrielle says:
rofl