Space

As I rapidly run out of room in my body for this baby, I am craving space on so many levels.

I want space in my bed so I can roll over with ease.
I want an empty house so I can nest and clean. I'm going crazy that i have no way of getting the house the way I want it to be, and it's not a priority for anyone but me.
At this point I don't feel comfortable at all with the idea of even laboring here cos it's so yuck. There's too much furniture, too much stuff and too many people.
I want space to breathe... and the kids pick up on this and it somehow makes them all the more needy of my attention. As soon as I withdraw to my own headspace, I'm bombarded with "Mum?" questions.
I want a haven. My house doesn't feel like that for me at all at the moment.
I keep finding that I want my mum here to make sure there's at least clean sheets on the bed when I come home from hospital... and to make sure MY needs are being met as I prepare for this bub. Mums are good at this stuff cos they needed it themselves once. Jase is more baby focussed, so it's a baby outcome focus rather than birth and baby focus.
I want Jase to support and just show some INTEREST in how I'm feeling right now. I know this one is particularly tough cos he is studying for his last exam which is held on the 11th Dec, and it's a killer so it's really taking his time right now.
I want Jase to pull his finger out and start driving the car to get used to a manual. I am fed up with being the limo driver. Completely fed up. I feel so unsupported not having the confidence he'll even be able to get me to hospital. He doesn't want to drive cos he says it makes him angry when he stalls etc. Well all that requires is a bit of practice. It reminds me of how when I was pregnant with Julian, he only got his license a month before Julian was born. It sucks.
Mostly though, I just want space.
I want his dad out of our house
I want my house clean
I want the kids in their own room
I want to have people with me in labor who GET me and support me
I want to run away and have this baby on my own in the bush somewhere if I can't have the previous things!
I'm feeling like running so much.. just for the sake of having my own space and not feeling suffocated by my environment and the people around me.
I've even thought maybe I could rent somewhere for a week around when bub is due to just have that space I am craving... to be on my own.