Buoyed

I'm finding myself in an elevated state of bliss at the moment...


I am REALLY enjoying the last trimester of this pregnancy, and almost feel a little saddened as each day passes and I know it's drawing to an end. Even though I still have a while to go, it does just go too fast.

It's such a beautiful gift to be able to grow and birth a baby - and I know with my last two babies I was never in the headspace to really enjoy the third trimester. I was too busy working and pushing myself to the limit doing everything that absolutely 'needed' to be done in a day... but this time, I'm really stopping to smell the flowers along the way, particularly now as I'm so obviously pregnant... because when I go somewhere and people stare (or occasionally gawk) at my waddle and belly, it reminds me to think of my current state and it always brings a smile to my face. It's so easy to grow complacent with the miracle going on within when it's such a gradual process of growth that it becomes your 'norm' and it just becomes who you are.

I'm becoming very protective of my state of bliss, and dedicated to maintaining its course... to the point where I am really getting serious about consciously deflecting negativity when it arises, and also deflecting people who aren't on the same track as me. This gets really tough when it is sometimes close family members who are the bubble bursters, as I am going to always have them in my life in some capacity, but I'm learning to create such a strong force of light around me that it's an unpoppable bubble :D Pretty fun imagery picturing people around me poking at me with barbs and needles and me in the middle of a big fat bubble smiling away like i'm in a marshmallow man suit. LOL!

So I'm focussing on and loving the bliss in being Buoyed, and having people and experiences in my life that buoy me above my normal level of happiness. It's not a case of my needing to have the buoyancy, but it is certainly a pleasant way to be, not only adding to my experience of life, but also adding to the quality of what I can contribute to others' lives while I have such a surplus of happy vibes.