A while back now, I did a 3 day course that really made me aware of just how much we create our own meanings for things that happen to us over our lifetime.
For example, someone will say or do something which is not meant to be hurtful to you, but for whatever reason, based on our past experiences and expectations, you feel hurt by it.
This course was about recognising that at that point, you're making choices about how you feel about something based on your filters. Therefore, you have a choice available to you. You can either feel hurt by making it mean something or you don't feel hurt by recognising it is just your meaning, so you don't take it onboard.
Recognising that whatever was happening to me in my life was being seen through my own filters formed from years of conditioning and self-meaning making, I was able to distance myself from the drama... and I'd had a long history of lots of it going on with my relationship with my parents, so it was a turning point for me and my relationship with them.
So while the drama for them goes on, and always will until they recognise that their freedom is available to them simply through their choosing it to be, I am able to sit, listen and find an energising stillness in choosing not to participate in their drama or conversations about drama. This is absolutely maddening to them, I'm sure they think I'm a nutter, but it's oddly humorous to me! There was a time when i would have felt i absolutely HAD to get my view across to them, and would have wanted to 'show them the light' to get them out of their drama cycle, but the thing is, it's all about timing, and they're simply not ready to give up what they get out of their drama, which is wallowing in the drama of drama! LOL!
So when drama arises with my parents, as it does every few weeks or so, I hear them getting into a frenzy and I am sitting calmly on the other end of the phone, detached from the drama but listening and marvelling at what a fantastic concoction of stress they've made for themselves, and i can't help but smile to myself at how crazy it is that they keep doing it over and over! There is humour in strange places in this universe :D
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